2011.

Firstly...Happy New Year !!!!

The first day of a new year. A day that for many recent years is one where I have woken up on a holiday break with friends. This year things were a little different. Jessica my first born turned 16 on New years eve and desperately wanted to go out with her best friends.The first new year without her parents.Does this mark the first sign of my babies flying the nest? She has become such a beautiful young lady, with a level head and wonderfully kind personality.She has a bright future ahead of her I'm certain.

Last year saw huge changes in all our lives. Marriage breakdown at the beginning of the year was a huge thing for my girls to face. They did so with such dignity, they make me so proud.They have managed to maintain good relationships with both their parents and also build good relationships with new people in their lives.

I have a new relationship with a kind and loving man and we are slowly but surely building a future together. A future. For so long my view of what the future might hold for me personally was quite bleak. Over the last year Dave has managed to change this for me , I can't thank him enough and feel so amazingly lucky to have him in my life.

Getting to where we are now has not been easy for anyone involved and many people have felt the need to try and involve themselves some how in the relationships that have broken and formed in both our lives, some people have judged the situation without knowing the full picture and some have shown themselves to be true friends no matter what. 2010 was very much a year for finding out who my true friends really are. I hope with all my heart that 2011 will bring peace for us. Peace for my children who have been through so much in 2010 at a time when life should be carefree (barring those exams looming this year!!!!). At 14 and now 16 they have proved to have an amazing strength of character that will set them both in good stead for years to come.

As Big Ben struck midnight last night a few tears flowed .... For the times gone by and the things we cannot change .

I made a small resolution to myself that I should allow myself to move on in 2011 begin healing some very old wounds and reach for happiness without regret.

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